I dont really know.

Okay so as usual here we go with the complaints. I am sad at the current moment. Everyone in my house is downstairs watching and enjoying a movie and where am I? Oh yeah that is right in my fuckin room doing my hw. I hate this I can hear them laughing. Them including my boyfriend. I feel so left out but it is not their fault. I mean why should they hold themselves back because of my inabilities to get my shit done when i want to. Albert and I didnt do anything at all for our 4 year anniversary. I know he says that we will when we have time but I dont think he will remember or he will just spend his money on his toys. Dont get me wrong he spends soooo much money on me. He really does, but I guess it is my stupid idea that he enjoys those fuckin toys yeah I said it toys more than me. I guess men and women are alot different after all. I like talking in here to no one because I cant vent out my stupid shit that really serves no purpose to say to anyone. I will only hurt people's feelings because I tend to say what I think even when it is not nice. I dont know, I just dont know. I mean I look at Albert and I think that I could marry him but there are so many things that I am unsure of with him. Like would he be a good father and you know like get excited about having children. I want to know that the man I marry is going to fully help me raise a family. I know that I shouldnt be thinking about these things but I cant help but think about my future and if I would be making the right choices. Well have to get back to the paper and other shit list.